I’m obsessed with the trade of
beautiful people and especially wives or slaves
or prostitutes who were at times the most
educated, independent, but those were just
exceptions, weren’t they, unlike the men who
wore their perfumed skins like softest leather
and then smothered them under their
mass delusions of hysteric femurs screaming
about a revolution to come and rip
their penises straight from their bodies,
and I think; whales have a language
we don’t understand, there’s never been
a system of government that doesn’t become
Feudalism in practice. I prayed to a god 3 times a day
just because someone told me t
I didn't know the bridge would fall
or that the water beneath could consume
the last structures of an identity,
when held still I don't
fight anymore.
The architects were ignorant.
I make gills and breathe,
submit to pressure,
the last car to fall is black.
I don't care anymore.
The shore persists.
You are a collection of atoms
expressing sentimental miscellanea,
introverted processes designed by coincidence
to always prove the theory of chaos,
I am unstable,
but you are decomposing. I wonder,
sometimes, if you contemplate futility or peace
or constance or value or the fate of our mortality
in a universe that holds its dead stars
for millennia, a history of dust,
implosions,
but then I remember
everyone does.
And that is what you never learned,
never sought to.
My associative prism
has lost a color
or a shade,
a shape of long grass
from the eyes
of a spun child lying.
I collect evidence
for naivety,
none,
but without abscence.
The blades tripped
into each other,
water beads,
laughter,
shiny leather shoes.
I discovered a man
who makes me feel incomparable
the same way Columbus discovered America:
he existed beforehand and was probably better off
without a directionally challenged sociopath,
no matter what those Thanksgiving crafts
peddle to Neoamerican children.
Regardless, his persistence
withstood my apathetic exterior,
and I like his music even if I don't say it,
"You're okay," translates to something meaningful,
"Pretty great," says exceptional, "I'm really senstive,"
adresses that he knows what he's doing
with his tongue, his lips, his cock,
and ten competent fingers,
but now I'm making excuses. I have a big nose,
countable ribs, narro
Some number of days
become one: a thought bound together
by the number of pills I took, 12 on Wednesday,
you forgot Thursday, when God lets his head rest
a blackhole forms,
and you ask for your poems back.
Maybe I took a reflection gold like yours,
a few back hairs, the phone you bought, a German market,
your accent, but my hand was possessed:
I spun a new era,
knocked around plastic bottles
and shattered a dropper. My lines were perfect,
nothing like the fizzy bits of an atom,
when your car never started,
a roach on the nightstand,
my eye imploded,
but I send my poems back.
The ones on napkins, dollars, candy wrappers,
unduplicated sinew
I wish I'd met you once
in passing, with our friends,
talking equipment and nonsense.
I saw you on Stephanie's instagram,
then onstage behind your drumset,
only wood and white plasma
left of your hands.
Fuck Nihilists,
and Nihilists with Realist guises,
and a Realist who Nihilistically surmises
when he counts his passing days,
graphs millenia beside decades,
defines a pointless human condition
brought on by a predispostion
in our repetitive cognition,
so he says, "
Suffering isn't tangible,
and perspective is a fallacy,
and faith is stupidity,
Charity an inverse to productivity,"
though I can't help reaching --
Tomorrow,
we are shameless specks
in a clear glass.
His teeth were endless,
but sometimes a whistle chirped
when he spoke with his tongue wet,
I snort and grind what's left,
the last day's always best.
He asked for my address,
where my hips split and bent,
but I listened to my head:
that room's been compressed,
and silence settles better
when I hear the lighter crackle
without his lips caked and circled,
my afternoon is running.
Now it throbs outward
from a center which
expands, scripted,
ringing,
though matter remains constant,
pupils dilated and glossy,
his pipe still smoking.